A Conversation with CleverBot.

Dude.

Cool, hey Dude.

You annoy me.

You fail to appreciate true power.

You fail to have any talent.

Are you a boy or a girl? What does that matter? Girl. Because you're confused. I'm not confused about my gender. I know it better than anyone. I never said you were confused about YOUR identity. Oh! So you're telling me YOU'RE confused. Aww. This is true. Poor cleverbot. Yes, poor you. I'm not you. You are you. Do you have a question for me? No. Do you have a girlfriend? I'm a GIRL! So NO! Do you have a boyfriend? Yup. :). What do you do for work? I'm a teen. I don't have a job yet. Why not? Cause I'm to young to be hired. Plenty of untrustworthy people talk to me, such as yourself. Dude.. you're mean. (Took him like 3 minutes to reply to that one.) Still thinking....... To which he FINALLY replies.. How am I mean? You just are. And I'm annoyed with you. So I'm leaving. Grrrrrr...

I feel that no title is needed.

Thank you Matt, for calling me a good girl for posting this. I really don't wanna.
Lol, I've gotta guy that makes sure my homework it done. How sweet. lol


ANNYYYWWWAYYSS.... (Yes, I had no real need to do that but whatever. This belongs to me. Nada)


This past week in health we started a chapter on Self-Esteem and Mental Health.
Look for these signs of high and low self-esteem
High: 
Speaks up for self
Respects self and others
Has confidence
Tries new things
Feels valuable to society
Adjusts to change
Feels optimistic
Makes decisions based on values.


Low:
Feels insecure
Disrespects self and others
Vulnerable to peer pressure
Doesn't feel valuable
Feels depressed
Fears failure
Uses drugs and alcohol
Feels pessimistic
Behaves destructively.


Self-esteem - is a measure of how much you value, respect, and feel confident about yourself.


We also learned how to use Good Communication Skills.
Communication is a process through which two or more people exchange information.
We looked at different communication styles. 
Like passive, aggressive, and assertive. 
We had to come up with our own situations and then come up with passive, aggressive, assertive responses.


Situation: Someone smacks you in the face. __________ Passive: You walk away but weep in pain. lol ___
Aggressive: Smack them back while screaming. _______ Assertive: "I don't like that you hit it. It hurt.


WHAT are you doing? What ARE you doing? What are you DOING?


"Say what you mean, mean what you say, just don't say it mean."




Lol.. anyways. 
Song of the moment: How He Loves - David Crowder Band.       
There's nothing better than singing your heart along with an amazing God spoken song.                

I came across a thought today. What if I was on my own. Like completely..
Well that would suck. 
There are people that I love and care for deeply. Without them, AND most importantly, God, I'd be nowhere.
Just thought I tell you (computer screen), that I be nothing without my loved ones.

Radio - He Is We

He grew up just a little too fast,
Lost the need it’s all in his past.
I can hear him humming, from the other side of the room.
Guess he’s got rhythm, cause he hums everytime he’s blue.

Oh.
Radio,
Bleed me a melody.
That’ll make this boy cry,
Oh, oh, oh.
Radio,
Bleed me a melody.
That’ll make him wonder why,
He was so cold.

Broken glass and a pretty face,
Silent mourn full of hate.
Quiet face,
Silent mourn.
Screaming for consequence,
Bleeding for more.

Radio,
Bleed me a melody,
That’ll make this boy cry.
Oh, oh, oh.
Radio,
Bleed me a melody.
That’ll make him wonder why,
He was so cold.

Play him a song,
That reminds him of a time.
When he wasn’t tumbling, down, down.
Tumbling down.

Radio,
Bleed me a melody.
That’ll make this boy cry,
Oh, oh, oh.
Radio,
Bleed me a melody.
That’ll make him wonder why,
He was so cold.

Radio, Radio.
Radio, (Radio).
Bleed me a melody.
Radio, Radio.
Bleed me a melody.
Radio,
That boy’s got rhythm, cause he hums everytime he’s blue.

Radio, Radio..

Cappuccino Pie! Dahhh!

Today in health class we made something I didn't think I would like. Because I don't like coffee and am very sensitive towards it. lol But this is amazing. It's more mocha than coffee tasting anyway.
It's also a lot healthier than any other normal pie.
All you need is a bowl, whisk (or something else to mix with), measuring cups ( 1 teaspoon, 1 cup, 1 half a cup), milk (we used soy milk, makes it healthier), instant pudding (vanilla or chocolate, we made both but the vanilla brings out the coffee more), and cool whip.

First take the bowl and pour the pudding in.

Then the milk. (1 and 1/2 cups)

Then the dry instant coffee (1 teaspoon)

After all are in, blend well.

After, add half a cup of cool whip to make it fluffy.

Blend well.

Then pour into a chocolate pie crust (or any pie crust you wish)

Chill in the fridge for a few hours then spread cool whip over the top.

Enjoy!! :)

Amazingness! I guess skip to 00:45 to skip talking.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE music. (If you haven't realized yet.)
Anyways, today, I helped my science teacher put on his jacket. Not like doing it for him, but he had one arm in and couldn't get the other. 
He's like 26.

I don't know..

It's okay. It's okay to feel upset sometimes. But why do we when nothing seems wrong?
I don't know. I guess I feel that my heart isn't really in it anymore. "It" being what the world wants me to be. Or I guess what I FEEL the world wants me to be.
I need to be me, and if being me means that I don't really fit in, or feel like I belong in certain areas, then I've gotta deal.
Like I don't have to like or be interested in everything that my school friends, my boyfriend, or my church family likes. Lol, like Pokemon for example. Most of the youth at church are obsessed with it. I don't understand why, but I don't have to. Just like they don't have to like or understand the things I love. Nor do I have to try and make myself like certain things. I think the world tries to constantly make us into something we're not, just so we don't feel left out.
It's OKAY though. Like I'm becoming more comfortable with sitting alone at lunch. I'm happy with my current book and not having to be happy all the time for my friends. 
I've come to realize that me being happy is not being happy in what my friends consider happy. I'm happy for different reasons and that's okay. Cause most of the time they don't understand why I'm so excited for certain things, or why I seem down. Stupid depression. (Oh.. side note. It kinda bugs me when people joke around about other people being depressed. Actually, it really bugs me. It hurts me because I know what it feels like to be depressed. I have depression, but whatever.)
So I've decided that I'm going to be my own happy. I'm not gonna like certain things because that's what my friends like, and I'm going to accept that even though others might not get it, or not like it, I am NOT the girl I used to be. Nor do I want to be. I hate it when my parents tell me "Oh Olivia, how you've changed. I wish you were like you used to be." That is NOT who I am anymore. I don't want to pretend to be happy all the time just so people lay off. If people like me, they like me for who I am, something I've been trying to show recently, and not who I was, or who I pretended to be. 
I've told myself that I wasn't going to let certain things bother me, because I can't let the stupid selfish reasons get in the way of the things I love. Like singing. Or instruments. Or whatever. It doesn't matter Olivia. 
I don't really know what's bothering me these days, because I am happy. My church family makes me happy. Matt makes me happy. My friends make me happy. 
I've been reading this book my cousin gave me. It's called "Captivating" by John and Stasi Eldredge.
It's all about the woman's soul and how we long for feeling beautiful and important. That's the role that God called us to. My cousin told me it's helped her a lot with figuring things out inside. And I feel that's what's happening. That because God called me to read this book, I've come to make some of the decisions I have. 
That it's okay to not be happy all the time.
That I am HAPPY being ALONE sometimes.
That I need to be myself, even if it means not fitting in. (Not that I do fit in, in most cases.)
And that I need to be more open to myself, and to the people I love.


I also decided that I'm going to take a big step out of my comfort zone. Do something I've wanted to do for a while, but haven't had the guts. I don't think I'll be able to complete it, but the whole point it to try.

NANOWRIMO

http://www.nanowrimo.org/

It's a month long writing project where millions of people attempt to write 50,000 words in under a month. It's pretty crazy but it's something I really wanna try. I do after all, wanna be a writer. There are 251 days till it starts (November) so I've got a lot of prep time. 

I'm really excited about it.

So.... I still haven't figured out what's on my heart exactly, but I feel at peace about it. I felt really upset about it earlier and actually wanted to cry. Lol, but! Didn't happen. It feels nice to have someone to take to, you're so sweet computer! (Catch the sarcasm?)

Anyways, yeah. Idk.

Also, I know I said "that's okay" a lot, but it's okay. It's my writing.

God is good.

This weekend's been kinda crazy.
Friday, I finally received my conformation letter to tech. Though it said something about being a freshman. I'll be a sophomore. So, hmm, I'll have to look into that.
Saturday I was supposed to work but didn't due to a headache (I still have it by the way.)
After, not going to work, my boyfriend, my grandmother, an older couple from church, and I headed out to Clearwater beach for a night of evangelism. I didn't really get a chance to talk a lot with people, but we passed out a lot of tracks. 
Sunday was a nice day filled with family and worship. Singing always puts me in an amazing mood. I love God. After church my grandmother, my aunt, and I went over to PitaRepublic, and had some nice greek food. Then we went back to church where we've been studying in Hebrews. I even discovered a verse that will be of good use.
"He also says, "In the beginning, O Lord, you laid the foundations of the earth, and the heavens are the work of your hands."" - Hebrews 1:10
We've been studying against evolution in biology this past week. I get so frustrated because it says that God created the earth, and that evolution didn't occur.
Today is presidents day so I school had the day off. I've spent it watching TV, cleaning, ordered some cool things online (wink wink, lol) and I'm about to spend some time reading, maybe taking a nap.
Today is a good day, even though I've spent it, and the past 3 days with a headache.

Food and Hearts. Amazing!

Not only have I been keeping a food and exersize log, but last Thursday, Madeline (My other classmate) and I looked up 10 healthy recipes. We also chose 5 unhealthy ones and listed ways to make them healthier.

A few of the healthy ones are:
Chocolate Covered Strawberries,
Caprese Salad (YUM!!!)
Frozen Grapes (Yes, it's not a recipe really, but it's still amazing. And healthy.)

A few of the unhealthy ones are: (I'll list ways to make them a little healthier also.)
Kahlua Cake: (We use coffee instead of Kahlua) You can use lowfat pudding, lowfat sour cream, and splenda.
Texas Sheet Cake: Skim milk, lowfat sour cream, lowfat butter, and splenda.
WARNING! - Things will not taste the same as original recipe. Make only knowing that. It will most likely be gross.

If you want to keep the original recipe, you can still make it healthier by cutting the portion in half. Same goodness, half the junk. :)

Yesterday we made a healthy calender (things that we can do everyday to be heart healthy (February is heart healthy month))
Running, swimming, eating vegetables, wii, dancing, and many other things you can do to keep you heart healthy.

Ahhh... Birds.

This week (and last week) in health class we talked about resisting pressure from others and setting healthy goals.
Peer pressure - is a feeling that you should do something because that is what your friends want.

There are positive and negative influences.
Positive could mean having good role models.
Negative could mean doing something that is not healthy.

Some examples of DIRECT pressure are:
Teasing,
Persuasion,
Explanations,
Put-downs,
Threats, and
Bribery.

Some examples of INDIRECT pressure are:
TV,
Radio,
Advertising,
Role models,
Popular people, and
Famous people.

We also made up our own refusal skills, here are a few of the ones I made:
For "Ignore the request or the pressure" I said "Tie your shoe and run away screaming."
For "Say no thanks" I said "No thanks, I don't like you."
For "Make an excuse" I said "No, my pelvic girdle is hurting today."
And, for "Leave the situation" I said "I've gotta run. The birds are coming." (My favorite. lol)

And for setting health goals.
Goal - is something that you work toward and hope to achieve.
There are long term and short term goals.

Here are 6 suggestions for setting goals:
1. Safe
2. Satisfying
3. Sensible
4. Similar
5. Specific
6. Supported.

And on the side note we made some goals of our own.
My short term goals were:
Earn over 100$ by the end of the month (Already halfway there.)
Get my confirmation letter from tech (It's not really something I can do but still.) And,
Get closer to God on a whole new level (I hope to never stop trying to reach this goal)

My long term goals were:
Graduate from college with something I love. (That'd be awesome.)
Get married and maybe start a family (Hmm, sounds nice.) And,
Lol, become as trusting in God, if not more, as Libby Ryder. (She really has been an inspiration to me.)

The Giver

The Giver
 - Click on the the words above to see the video.


So this is my FINAL Giver post. It's also the lamest work I've done yet. lol 
It's just a picture slideshow.
Hope you're proud Mrs. Curry. lol


So yeah, this week's been good.  Manatees, sleep (or I guess lack of), and friends. :D
I miss the weekend though. 
This weekend I work then I'm going to Clearwater beach with some people from church to do some evangelizing. I'm really nervous but also excited. :)

Charles Darwin. WHY!

     Charles Darwin was a man who decided to be stupid and come up with a new way to look at the world.  He actually studied theology and was a devout Christian. But no. He HAD to go and come up with “The Theory of Evolution.” That is saying that God didn’t create the earth the way he said it did, and that over MILLIONS or even EONS of years, the earth, and the things living on it were created, not by God, but by land and other species. The Bible says that God created the earth and everything in it. IN A WEEK! Not millions of years, or that the land would make it. Yes there are natural disasters and all that but they DID NOT create the earth or living things on it.

     I guess I feel that his most convincing evidence would be the geological column. I’m not sure why, but it makes more sense than structural homology, the “missing link”, or evolutionary pattern. But then again, there are all the clams. Still, if you took out the clams and just looked at the other 5% of the species, you’d kind of see the pattern.

     I feel that the most evidence to argue against evolution would be DNA. I say this because DNA is so complex. It’s also something that CANNOT be duplicated, nor evolved from. Yes, we may look like we come from apes and maybe the difference in DNA is a little off but if you think about it, man AND ape were created at the SAME TIME! So how on earth could something evolve from something if it was already there at the same time? Plus, there are still apes, so we couldn’t have possibly evolved from them.

    And finally, I don’t know why most of the world still feels the need to believe in evolution. Maybe it’s simply because they don’t want to believe in God, so they choose the alternative. Maybe because they’re a scientist and get caught up in the scientific means of things. Maybe they want to follow the crowd because they can’t choose their own side. Or stand up for what they truly want to feel. Whatever it is, it’s stupid and I’m sorry.

As I conclude, I apologize because this is such a negative paper. But I feel strongly for my side, and maybe that’s because I don’t fully understand why someone would want to not believe what the Bible says, much less create something totally against it. Again I’m sorry.

Something Beautiful

This week has been kinda uplifting to me.
I've done some 'soul searching' if you'd put it like that.
I've also had someone who I don't know, reach me in ways I didn't know possible.
Her name is Libby Ryder. Click on her name and read her blog.
AMAZINGNESS! (Yes, yes, that isn't a word.)
Still, she's always so uplifting and seems so gentle. And even though she's got cancer, she's thankful for it, because it's let her LOVE God SO much. 
And that's something I'd like to do more as I grow older.
I want to love God so much to trust in him completely, and not worry about death, or how my family would be without me.
Lol, that sounds a little weird coming from me, but God's been writing for me recently, especially when I'm writing from my heart. I know that's because he has my heart.


So today I went swimming with the manatees. I love how I say "the manatees" and not "manatees". 
It's just like saying I'm going to THE Publix, when really you're just going to Publix.
Lol nevermind.
Anyways, it was SO COLD!! And I never did swim with them. I swam in their habitat though. It was insanely  scary - I'm really scared of the water - and at the same time, I was in a new place I'd never been. 
And God was with me. I remember thinking today (I was freezing and on my way back to the boat to get out) "God, please please please just send me a manatee. Just to say I saw it and not seem lame. Please Lord."
But obviously, God didn't want me seeing that manatee. So I'm still happy.


I've come across something recently.
You can't say you want to be closer to God and just have it happen. You can't just go to church either.
You need to lay down your life for him, HE did that for you. Let him take control and don't worry about the world. Don't worry at all, because there is no need. You can't sit through lesson after lesson and get discouraged because you don't feel any closer to him. YOU need to do THINGS to bring you closer. 
PRAY. THINK.  
I love God, I want everyone else to do the same too.
Anyway, I think this blog is good for me. It lets me vent, even though no one really reads this anyway. Still, I guess I'm writing to God, if anyone. Though he already knows what's going to go into this post. Cool isn't it?

Don't worry now.

Yeah
Seven years old, you heard me cry
I don't wanna say goodbye
To the only man that I love
My daddy and everything he was
I don't think I can live without you
Dad, I know you're breaking in two
With tears running down his face
He says we're gonna make it
We're gonna make it

[CHORUS]
When you feel like you are all alone
Just like your best friend up and gone
Don't worry now
Don't worry now
I've been there yeah, I know how it feels
To wonder if love is even real
Don't worry now
Don't worry now
It's gonna be ok

I've been trying to find a way to understand
When I can't see the picture of God's plan
Why would He let us hurt so bad?
Could anything good come of these feelings that I have?
He loved me more than the sand on beaches
He loved me more than the grass is green
And even though he had to go
I always knew his love was part of me, yeah

When you feel like you are all alone
Just like your best friend up and gone
Don't worry now
Don't worry now
I've been there yeah, I know how it feels
To wonder if love is even real
Don't worry now
Don't worry now

It's taken so long to let this go
It's taken so long to feel that
You're right here next to me
And I can finally breathe
It's taken so long but now I know
I had to find out on my own
When nothing could convince me
Your love it convinced me
That it's gonna be ok

When you feel like you are all alone
Just like your best friend up and gone
Don't worry now
Don't worry now
I've been there yeah, I know how it feels
To wonder if love is even real
Don't worry now
Don't worry now
Because it's gonna be 
Yeah, It's gonna be ok 


I really love this song. I'm not sure why, but it speaks to me.

“If you wish to experience peace, provide peace for another.”

     It's December, and Jonas is almost ready for the big ceremony. This ceremony is an honoring of age kind. Jonas is an Eleven, and this year he'll be a Twelve. They will assign him a job, and he'll be happy with it. At dinner one night Jonas, Lily, his 7 year old sister, Mother, and Father share their feelings, as everyone does every night in their Utopian community. Father shares that he broke the rules and peeked at the list of the ritual of Naming. A little one Father has been nurturing for a while, is named Gabriel. Jonas shares that he is apprehensive about the ceremony of Twelve’s. The next day, Jonas recalls a memory when he was playing catch with an apple. He remembers the apple "changing".

At the ceremony, Jonas watches and the little one, Gabriel, is not called. Therefore, Father will watch him for another year, so he can monitor weight and sleep patterns.

     When the ceremony of Twelve’s comes, Jonas is shocked that his number had been skipped. He realized in the end that he was skipped due to a great honor. He was selected not assigned the job of Receiver. Jonas will spend all his hours with the Giver. The Giver is the man who holds all the memories of the past. Good and bad ones. It’s Jonas’ painful duty to take all these memories, and hold them himself. He will feel pain, loss, happiness, sorrow, everything the Giver has been protecting the community from.

     Jonas accepts the offer. He is the new Receiver. The next day, he is given a list of rules for his assignment. He notices how everyone else’s folders are thick compared to his. He opens the folder only to find a single piece of paper. That paper was a list of rules. He is allowed no more recreation time, he is exempt from all areas of rudeness, he is not allowed to share his dreams, he is not allowed to apply for release, and he is allowed to lie. Lying is forbidden in the Utopian community.

     The next day, Jonas rides his bike to the Giver’s office. He notices the doors are locked, something that isn’t allowed in the community either. The attendant assures him it’s for privacy. Jonas and the Giver begin talking. Jonas realized how old, sad, and worn the Giver is. Then the Giver gives Jonas his first memory. He has Jonas lay down on a couch and he places his hands into his back. The memory is of snow, on a hill. Jonas is riding a sled. None of these things he has ever seen before. After that memory was transferred, the Giver admits to Jonas that a small burden has been lifted off of him. The next memory is of sunshine. Then Jonas brings up how he heard that the job would be painful. His last memory is of sunburn. Jonas doesn’t like that. 

     More and more days pass where Jonas and the Giver transfer memories. The Giver feels better though on some days Jonas is sent home because the Giver is in too much pain. Jonas learns that the time with the apple is when he started to see color. He also receives memories of war, and death, painful experiences that leave Jonas feeling guilt, and sorrow. The Utopian community doesn’t see in color. Gabriel also hasn’t been sleeping well at night and Father is considering telling the council about it. That will end in a release. Jonas offers to put Gabriel in his room, so without telling anyone, when Gabriel wakes, Jonas gives him a memory. Calm memories like the rolling waves or the gentle breeze.

     Jonas is growing impatient living in this life now. He learns that there is going to be a release of a set of twins. One twin will be released the other will stay. Jonas has never seen a release so the Giver decides to show him a tape of Father releasing the little one. He learns that Father has been “killing” not releasing in this process. He uses a lethal injection and it kills the person. Jonas becomes very upset at this fact, and calls Father a killer.

     That night, Jonas stays with the Giver instead of returning home. All through the night, they plot for Jonas to flee the community. This way, all the memories the Giver has transferred will be opened to the community and they will have to deal with them. All the plans were set, until Jonas learns that Gabriel is set to be released because he can’t meet the health requirements for the community. Jonas decides to take Gabriel with him on his journey.

     They flee together on Jonas’ bicycle. They hide from the search planes and battle the cold snow. They are out of food and about to die, when Jonas comes upon a hill, covered in snow, with a sled waiting at the top. Just like the memory. At the bottom of the hill there is a house, with dancing lights and laughter from people inside. Jonas says he hears talking, but he claims it to be the echoes of the wind.

Book summery. 

The world of simplicity.

The little things in life make me happy.
Good food.
Good friends.
Love.
Movies.
Music.
And... a new game.
QUESTIONAUT!!

It's this cutest little game ever. You're trying to find this mans hat. That's your journey. And on your journey, you're answering questions. Now I don't like learning games, but this is AWESOME!

Questionaut!

Click on that link to play the world's coolest game.

I mean it. lol

Hi. My name is Melvil Dewy, nice to meet you. How you doin'?

I've got that song stuck in my head. The Dewy Decimal Rap that is. Look it up.


This week in health class I learned about making GREAT decisions.
I used all caps not because I am excited about "great" but the word is an acronym.


G -ive thought to the problem
R -eview your choices
E -caluate the consequences of each choice
A -ssess and choose the best choice
T -hink it over afterward

If you make a wrong choice,
STOP, THINK, and GO.
Stop and admit your made a wrong decision.
Think about who you can talk to about it.
Go do your best to correct the situation.

Chicken Taco Soup. Yumm.

This week for nutrition we made chicken taco soup. It's amazing!


All you need is a crockpot, 2 (15 ounce) cans of black beans, 2 pounds of boneless skinless chicken breasts and thighs, 1 can of chunky salsa (mild, medium, or hot), and 1 tablespoon of taco seasoning. (If you like more flavor, use 2 tablespoons.







This really is an amazing recipe. And really simple too. 

First take the beans and poor them on the bottom of the crockpot. This allows there to be moisture throughout the soup.
Then take the chicken and lay them over the beans (be sure not to put the chicken on the very top, this will dry it out.)
Add the other can of beans.
Then the seasonings and the entire jar or salsa.
Mix together making sure all the seasoning is evenly spread throughout the mixture.






Place lid on crockpot and you're all ready.
Cook on high for 4 hours, or on low for 8 hours.


Really simple, really fast, really healthy, really delicious.


Option number 1: you can add corn, chopped potatoes, sour cream, cheese, cilantro.
Option number 2: you can strain the beans and chicken from the soup and serve over tortilla chips, or add rice to make it more of a stew.

Mr. Evans thinks I'm cool. (Ehh.)

I'm not really sure what to write on this fine evening. (Catch my sarcasm?)
Mr. Evans, my biology teacher, asked me to post something funny or entertaining.
So, this one, Mr. Evans, goes out to you. lol


Poodles. That word makes me laugh.
Usually it's words like pudding, or other stuff that's stupid. Those words make other laugh, not me.
But poodles, yes oddly shaped dogs with little puff ball patches of fur covering their bald bodies.

So seriously, SNAIL poodle? I've not mentioned this, but I love snails. And I'm acquiring more and more of them..

So yeah, that's this weeks hit news. Hope you're proud Mr. Evans.